The Comeback Girl

Comeback Kids, Do you know what today is? It is the premiere of “Sex And The City”. Can’t wait to see the magic being worked with Carrie and Mr. Big FINALLY getting married (I think, it looks like a serious twist with the trailer. And how fabulous is Jennifer Hudson. This dress is amazing and the shoes are badder than BAD.

And I hate to get all astrological. I’ve been reading and hearing that alot of people’s ex’s are coming around…well there is a planetary explanation that starts with the word Mercury and ends with retrograde, but I’ll leave that for another day. Anywhoo “Seattle” called a few days ago saying he would be in town today. This WAS supposed to be the man I married four years ago. He got a job in Seattle and insisted I move. Leave everything behind at the time I owned a house in Baltimore, and was thinking about purchasing the one I live in today, I was also doing well at work. He told me I was enterprising and could start over. But he didn’t really have a super great plan either…I know I can be a very goal oriented independent woman. I would actually defer to my man, but you can’t lead me down a dark narrow cave.

In hindsight I’m glad I didn’t go. “Seattle” had a real knack for shooting for the stars (and he did have a good job offer), but he also lacked A LOT of confidence that was self-sabotaging in my opinion. We met at work. And while I never ever had a problem getting my contract renewed, he ALWAYS did. I HATED his work ethic. You know sometimes I shoot the shyt, but WORK is WORK-and even when my day or night gets extended cause I’m chatting it up. I manage to get it done AND WELL. He talked a great game. But on conference calls he was always SUPER unsure about EVERYTHING. Things would break, we’d round up on a late night call…and he was always the VERY LAST to join. So when its time to make some budget cuts, guess whose ALWAYS THE FIRST TO GO, the underperformer. I wanta man who is great at what he does (maybe even the best). He could dig ditches, but I want him to dig the deepest most BEST ONE. Even if he can’t I want him to think it, or at least believe ME when I tell him.

My mama always used to say that. “I don’t care what you do, you could watch paint dry all day, but just be the best damn paint watcher you can be. So we’ll see. I know he can hear the non-excitement in my voice. But I just know that people rarely change core beliefs and attitudes. What’s the point in showing up if you aren’t going to be very good at it.

(ps I’m working on my Lalah Day email distro…Yes I always manage to bring it round back to my girl.)